http://www.abovehisshoulders.com Book offering a true account of child sexual abuse, its impact on relationships, and the emotional survival and healing Thu, 23 Dec 2010 05:40:18 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 http://www.abovehisshoulders.com/freedom/comment-page-1/#comment-2961 Maria Thu, 27 May 2010 02:47:18 +0000 http://www.abovehisshoulders.com/?page_id=282#comment-2961 Even though I have done a lot of work on my abuse, I've had this nagging feeling like something was missing. I would continue to have the same type of dreams &/or nightmares from time to time. It has only been recently that I have begun to work on my issues again that have seemed to elude me. The deepest, most painful and intimate of issue is left to be worked on since I have done all the other work over the years. The feeling of freedom, true freedom and happiness with myself and others has been what I've been striving for in my life. I do not have to tell you how scared to death I am of this next stage in my healing journey. I finished my intake evaluation today to join a "thriving and surviving group" that lasts for at least 12 weeks, minimum and is composed of trauma individuals. Sharing my "story" with a therapist is bad enough but with others as well while we are doing an art project that moves us towards healing? My voice cracks, my arms and legs shake and all the "failure" thoughts keep coming up of how I just cannot handle this work. I am yearning for the day when I will be able to talk as openly and freely as you. I am continuing on with my individual therapy as well as the intensive group therapy because I just cannot get the healing part out of my head. As I continue to heal, emotionally from my wreck, it's time again to continue with my abuse as well. The big Q. is do I really have the courage, and perseverance as I did before the car wreck? And as much as you have, Dan? I want freedom and the ability to work, lessen up with all the PTSD from not only my abuse but the car wreck as well. Thank you very much for listening to my ramblings. Even though I have done a lot of work on my abuse, I’ve had this nagging feeling like something was missing. I would continue to have the same type of dreams &/or nightmares from time to time. It has only been recently that I have begun to work on my issues again that have seemed to elude me. The deepest, most painful and intimate of issue is left to be worked on since I have done all the other work over the years. The feeling of freedom, true freedom and happiness with myself and others has been what I’ve been striving for in my life. I do not have to tell you how scared to death I am of this next stage in my healing journey. I finished my intake evaluation today to join a “thriving and surviving group” that lasts for at least 12 weeks, minimum and is composed of trauma individuals. Sharing my “story” with a therapist is bad enough but with others as well while we are doing an art project that moves us towards healing? My voice cracks, my arms and legs shake and all the “failure” thoughts keep coming up of how I just cannot handle this work. I am yearning for the day when I will be able to talk as openly and freely as you. I am continuing on with my individual therapy as well as the intensive group therapy because I just cannot get the healing part out of my head. As I continue to heal, emotionally from my wreck, it’s time again to continue with my abuse as well. The big Q. is do I really have the courage, and perseverance as I did before the car wreck? And as much as you have, Dan? I want freedom and the ability to work, lessen up with all the PTSD from not only my abuse but the car wreck as well.
Thank you very much for listening to my ramblings.

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